What made me sad? Journal 2014

This is the journal that I wrote the beginning of 2014…so still not look so well. I didn’t mention a thing. When I did bad to someone, it makes me feel very sad.

All people allways has good time and happy but some time people fell sad. I think they has a reason. When i sad it has a lots of thing that make me sad. Every thing that make me sad i will hate it. The thing that make me hate is if someone came and do some thing bad to me and they do some thing that rude to me to look. I want to fight them if it my friend. Some time if my family has a some thing wrong to each other they going to contention​ each other it make me sad. When i live in Liger i need to leave my home town to study in Liger school it is also reason that i sad too but it ok because when a Feast at home Liger will take us to go home. If i exam and i don’t has a most point i will be sad then i will cry but i will endeavor to learn. I will be sad if someone insults me and they going to tell other people bad thing about me.

Same as this girl, but I don’t know her feeling at that time. 🙁

 

 

Who do I miss? Journal 2014

There are stills errors in my journals at 2014. It is no better. But I tried to study, I got an education and now I can write better than before (2016).

Every time i live with my grandparents and all my family but i do not lived with my parent. When i was at grade 5 at gavoment school Liger school come to my school for do a test. I do a test 2 time. It was with my school and with Seyha school. I was past all the students with Seyha. When bong Mary took me home my grandma saw me and said who is it and i explant who is it. Then my grandma she go to ask my grandpa. He said it ok Samady can go to learn this school. I’m very happy to hear that said Bong Mary.When i live in liger i miss my family but if i live in my family i miss Liger school. It very hard for me that the house and the liger school not near by. I just has that sentence for write. I said at the other sentence. Oh now i know one sentence to write. When i has holiday with my friend when i arrive home i all way sad and cry because i’m miss Liger School.

Run/Bike Race at Siem Reap Journal 2014

Driving and get ready for race!

I was very happy to go to Siem Reap for a race. I went to Siem Reap because I have a bike and running race. On Friday I woke up and showered to get ready for this trip. I left Liger at 8am with my friends, Jojo, and Max. I went to Siem Reap with Animal Guide Exploration group, Bike group and Running group. It was a very nice day. In the bus that I was in there were many luggages at the back of the seat. So we need to take one bus and one van to drive. In the van there are teachers and some stuffs, for the bus we have students, Jojo, Max and a lot of materials that we bring with us. We ate lunch around 12:30pm. Our lunch was sandwhich. We ate in the bus because we don’t want to stop. In the bus we were watching movie called Mummy and the other one called Garden of the Galaxy. It was so fun and I sometimes felt headache because I tried to look at the TV. In the bus I also play Catan. Catan is the game that look like minecraft, but it not in computer. I played with Sythong and Kahna. Later I felt headache so I stop play this game. At the afternoon around 2pm we stop and relax. We bought some snacks and played frisbee. I felt very happy at that time because I can get the fresh air, I will not get car sick again! When we arrived Siem Reap I went to one place to buy a shirt for bike and for running. I also go and pick the bike that fit me. When I saw a bike I think it to big for me. Oh my god! How can I ride this big bike to race with the other people? But I tried to ride that bike and I started to like it. After that my bike group went to Sunrise where we will sleep. I arrived and eat dinner there. It was yummy! I also met a lot of friends there. They were so friendly and kind. At night I go to playground that is in Sunrise to play with Soliday. We were swang the swing and played another game. In the room I also played card with Poppy, Gorgie and our friends, Sythong, Dalin, Soliday, Vattey and Kahna. When we play the games Soliday always lost. Then Jojo come in and said that we all should gone to bed at 8:30pm and now it’s 9pm, so please get in bed. When I heard that I brush my teeth and sleep. Tomorrow I need to bike and I was very excited.

Bike race and in Sunrise!

At 4:30am I woke up and get ready for the bike race. I still feel asleep but I was trying to not feel tired. In the morning, 6am it’s time to race. I bike for 30k and it was far and long way round. When I bike, I saw a lot of people biking around me, I think it around five hundred people who was biking 30km. When I bike I saw one man, he told me that you should make your saddle higher than this! Then I stop and told Mr. Jeff to help me. I ride, I think I was passed because there were a lot of big people. When I rod I also saw two men get crash with each other and one man he got blood on his body. Along the road I felt that I hurt my back because I sit for two hours to ride the bike. It was so hard for me! During the race, there were people that gave us water. When they give the water to me, I didn’t stop the bike, I just ride and my right hand, take the water bottle from that person. I drink it and I don’t want to throw it away, but I saw a lot of people throw the water bottle away. When I raced I really like to shift the bike again and again, it was so fun for me. After I finished the race, I drink juice and get the medal. Rithy, Vuthy, Menghourt, Dom, Mr. Jeff and I wait for teacher Reksmey to finish her race. When teacher Reksmey came we were looking for Max too. Max sign up for 100k bike race.100k is a lot! I can not do that, if I did, I will die. After we saw Max bikes, we stop watching and went for breakfast. My breakfast was Khmer noodle. It was yummy because I am hungry. Then I went back to Sunrise and play Capture the flag. They was so small. Most of them didn’t respect the rules. But never mind I just told Mr. Jeff. After we finished playing, we went into Sunrise’s theatre to watch Sunrise performance. They performed Khmer dance and it was so cool because they were skillful. At Sunrise I saw one boy that his face looks like Davith, but he was smaller than Davith. His name is Pich. After we finished watching the Khmer dance performance, we ate lunch and went back to that theatre again to listen to Sunrise presentation and present Liger presentation. After listen to Sunrise presentation, it’s Liger turn. We start our presentation. Everyone introduced their name. Sythong and Seyha are the hosts. It was the presentation, but I wasn’t saying anything. I just say my name and help Niron one thing about Geography. You know why I can not saying anything? Because we have short time and some people spoke a lot so the last person they can not speak anything. At the AE presentation, I want tp talk about Asean Politics, but I can not because my presentation was not in the google presentation. I hate that, I nearly cry but then I thought, I also have one more thing to say, don’t give up! Culture Shock is the Exploration that I wanted to say. But then Jojo come and said to us, sorry for some of us that can not present because it is time. So my tears came out from my eyes, I am trying to keep my tears to not fall off. I just think that, first person speak a lot but they didn’t give a chance to the last person. But it is okay. After that we went to play football with Sunrise kids. At that time Jojo was not there because she is busy. When we played already we get one to one, but then we have Pelonete. We were got zero and Sunrise were got two! It’s so bad because we let Sunrise beat us!. But when the boy played they get three to zero. Did you think it is cool? After playing football we come back, we shower and having a party. The party was dancing and watching movie. But I wasn’t dance. I just play with Sunrise students and some of Liger students. It was fun but a little bit tired. Then I sleep because tomorrow I have a running racing.

Running Race
I woke up at 4:40am. I wore the shirt and get ready for a race. The shirt was too big for me and it is hard to wear, but it is okay because I only wear it for two hours so don’t be tuft. I and my others friends were drove to Angkor Wat to race. I was saw a lot of people. I think it was around eight thousand people who is running. When I was arrived I felt nervous and surprised because this is my first time. The race began. I was ran half Marathon at Angkor Wat. So it mean I ran 10km. When I ran I passed a lot of people because I am small and easy to run through. One time I stopped running and walk because I am tired. But then one man run and touch to give me a sign- I think he mean that don’t stop running- please keep running. Then I ran and I feel happy because there was a man that cheered for me to be strong. When I ran there were many people that gave the water to me just like the bike race. But I didn’t take the water because I don’t want to stop running and one more thing is I afraid that my stomach will get hurt. I hope that I can run all the way of 10km( Half Marathon). After I was finished running, I go to get the medal and went back to Sunrise. I came back, pack and ready to come back to Liger. I felt a little bit dizzy because I just finished the run race and I afraid that I will get car sick. When I ride in a van I felt sleepy sometimes, but it’s hard to sleep because we need to sit with a lot of people in one small van. I just sit and if I want to sleep I need to put my head down and just close my eyes. During the time that we ride the van, we have one problem. The wheels of the van nearly broke, so we need to find the place to change the wheels. Then we need to wait for 30 minutes. We were come back to Liger and sleep. When we were arrived Liger everyone seem to be tired because most of us just eat a little bit of rice at dinner room.

Feeling Bad Journal 2014

I like to learn in Liger. Sometime when I learned I feel so stress in the class. Sometime when I learned about literacy but I think of something. It hard for me. If in the day that have one second of sad I will sad for all day long, except there will some fun subject and fun activity. Most of the time when I feeling sad I always when on my bad and yell and wallowing, rolled around. When my friends ask, what happen? Then I just said it okay. Another thing is when no one come to play with me, I felt oh why they don’t come to play with me? But sometime when I saw them play together I feel happy and I smile. Also if someone that funny and it my close friends that come to tell me I am so weak and bad girl, I will always lost- I just smile and I laugh. I think it funny that my friend come to say this words to me. But sometime if someone not my close friends and said something bad to me, I just think in my mind about that person why she/he talk to me this way? Let move away from this. Sometime no one know my feeling. My face it was normal for me if I just quiet and my face not smile. But for some teacher or friends said why my face look sad, have something happened bad to me? I said nothing, it normal for me. One student in Liger always scare me, and I said don’t scare me, I am a normal person. You see me, I am just like you, not a monster or a ghost. Now stop talking about that.

Performance at Diamond Island Theater 2014

I like to learn in Liger. Sometime when I learned I feel so stress in the class. Sometime when I learned about literacy but I think of something. It hard for me. If in the day that have one second of sad I will sad for all day long, except there will some fun subject and fun activity. Most of the time when I feeling sad I alway when on my bad and yell and wallowing, rolled around. When my friends ask, what happen? Then I just said it okay. Another thing is when no one come to play with me, I felt oh why they don’t come to play with me? But sometime when I saw them play together I feel happy and I smile. Also if someone that funny and it my close friends that come to tell me I am so weak and bad girl, I will alway lost- I just smile and I laugh. I think it funny that my friend come to say this words to me. But sometime if someone not my close friends and said something bad to me, I just think in my mind about that person why she/he talk to me this way? Let move away from this. Sometime no one know my feeling. My face it was normal for me if I just quiet and my face not smile. But for some teacher or friends said why my face look sad, have something happened bad to me? I said nothing, it normal for me. One student in Liger always scare me, and I said don’t scare me, I am a normal person. You see me, I am just like you, not a monster or a ghost. Now stop talking about that.

Changing House Weekly Journal 2014

When we come back from the holiday we all changing the house because it started years 3. I really happy but I a little lazy to move my stuff and leave my old house with a best friends. When I moved the house I really really hate to move all the crazy stuff and lots lots of books, clothes,etc. When I move my stuff I thought it will have lots of people help me. But my thought or my hope it can’t be when I changed the house. Just maybe that have 1 or 2 people help me because I think not only me that have a lot of stuff other people also have more than me. (I think so…). When I moved my stuff already I started to help other people in my new house. You know what when I moved my stuff to the other house I really tired and lazy to make my clothes organized. The changing house day it been a lot of fun and a lot of werst day. When I move my stuff to other house I started to organize my clothes in the closet. Before I take my clothes in that closet I feel…. more angry. Why, because in that closet have a lot of rat poo and gecko poo. Very very…… bad! But it ok. Maybe I can clean it. Then I cleaned and put the water that smell good in it. When it finished it feel….ok it better than before.(I thought). When I put the clothes half I started to lazy and very very tired so I stop for a moment. Moment! Not really. I not stop for a moment I stop for maybe until the night because at the afternoon I need to go to the 3D printer. When it time to go to the 3D printer I thought that my name not go to the 3D printer because I confuse with Vattey about the exploration. So I thought not me, not me, don’t worry. But soon Samady! mom yelled, no not really a yelled, mom called me ” Samady now you need to wear the red polo shirt and your school skirt. I said what me! Oh no! Bad day. When I wore my uniform cloth I thought in my mine not me, not me, don’t believe me, not me, not me, I said not me. Why it me! When I wore my uniform cloth already I went to the in front of Liger school because the van waited for me there. When I in the car my face not look really happy and one more thing is I car sick. When I in the car mom said it is ok Samady I don’t know that you or Vattey is the person to go. But today I think you need to go because your name in the list. So when Monday you can talk to teachers or to mom about you confuse with Vattey. Ok, I said ok mom. When I in the car I fell a little bit of sick but it very lucky that I not throw out and the 3D printing not to far away from Liger. But when I arrived there and listen to the 3D printer or the stuff at there I thought oh I really lucky that come to this 3D printer because I not in this exploration and I want to come again tomorrow. It fun! When I come back I bought some cookie. When I arrived Liger I go to home and saw my cloth are in the house not yet organize but now it nearly time to eat rice. When I ate rice finished I came home and organize my clothes, my books and my crazy stuff. When I lived in new house first day I not yet think that I live in that house. I felt just like I am in the old house. But 3 or 4 days I felt a little bit of like can lived in the new house and with new friends.